Trying this out.

Hmmm... where to start... well, I like to blog on myspace but after reading some of The Stirring's blogs, as well as Jessica's and Janet's I thought I should start one. Like I told Jess, I have always wanted to journal but I don't have the paitence and I don't like my handwriting so we'll see if this works any better.

So, I guess I'll just start out with what I've been up to lately. Last week was definitely a hard one. Tina's mom was in the hospital on Tuesday, I was buried in homework all week long, Friday my internet broke so I couldn't print out an essay, my car broke (okay technically just the radiator was broken but whatever) which meant that I wouldn't be able to do ANYTHING I had planned to do on the weekend, including hanging out with Jessica because she was home visiting. As the whole car thing was happening I was texting Tina and getting SO frustrated because that meant my family only had one car for the next few days and it was going to be crazy and busy. However, I remembered that no matter what happens God is there and things could always be worse. Right as I was talking myself down from my tree Tina texts me this great prayer (yes... we pray through texting... we all knew it was good for something.. haha) all about peace and calm-ness and it was just amazing. I love having friends in Christ who can encourage and push me when it's needed. It makes my day.

So, now some cool God stuff. The past two weeks I haven't felt very close to God at all. I had a month where I was SO on fire and crazy for God but lately it was different. I kept having doubts and these thoughts that were obviously not from Him. So, I finally prayed about it. And automatically I felt this sense of peace and closeness with God. It was SO amazing. THEN, I have been asking God to show me my calling and to give me opportunities to exercise it. I've felt it is going to be something with leadership but I had no idea.. so at church on Sunday I had an epiphany. These past few months I have had different people on my heart and I have simply told them whatever it was I thought they needed to hear.... well at church I started thinking that maybe words of encouragement and prayer WAS my calling... what I had been doing for the past few months was my purpose.. well after this epiphany Nate started talking about how God is calling for leaders in the church and how sometimes that means encouraging people with kind, loving words and simply praying for them.... WHOA!!!!! I had a little freak out sesh right there. So, yeah... I feel that that IS my calling.. we'll just have to see.

I think that's enough writing for tonight. Until tomorrow. :)