Okay. So all week I've been feeling..... odd. Yes. That's a good word. Odd.
Normally I am super happy and excited and just generally
a happy person.
Well all week long I was in a weird mood. I wasn't sad... or mad...
just.... different. I didn't get excited about things and I was just
feeling... blah.
I also had really weird dreams which made the "blah" feeling NO better.
Then I had a dream that I was going to BSSM and Kris Vallotton was
my mentor of sorts. I went to him with some problem and he helped
me talk it out and was really nice. At the end of our conversation
he gave me a hug. But it was like... a "dad" hug. I just felt really
safe and comfortable. I woke up and was really weirded out.
Welllll this morning at Bethel during worship I started thinking about
that again and Jesus said, "that hug in your dream was from me. And that
was only the smallest expression of my love for you"
It rocked my world. It changed me. He is so good. I know that He is my
Dad and all that but I don't think it ever really clicked until this
morning.
Also, I was having this issue. I don't really want to explain it on
here because it's somewhat private/embarrassing. But I'll just say
that the realization of this issue was a huge slap in the face.
I didn't think I had a problem with this and then realizing that I did
was really hard. Then dealing with it and letting God work in me to
fix the issue is hard but good.
The Stirring tonight was meant for ME. I left with a huge sense of peace
and contentment about it. I love Jesus and He is teaching me to TRUST Him
more and more.
I love Him.
Oh and P.S.
Chelsey.. you're last blog really helped this whole "issue"
Like it shined a HUGE light on it and really gave me clarity.
I love you.
1 comment:
Yes. Way to have my blog help your blog. That's the way blogs work. Hand-in-hand, together they can help the world.
No really, I'm really excited. That was a big realization for me. And I really want to follow through with it. Most of the time I have realizations and am like "That's great!" And that's the end. But this time I want it to be different.
So, I'm off to go spend time with my boyfriend.
And if you ever want to talk about this mysterious issue, I'd love to hear about it. Obviously judging will not be a part of that conversation and I'll probably end up saying, "I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN!" because that's what usually happens when I have those conversations.
Ok, love you.
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