So now that the fast is over I want to share with all of you the things that impacted me and just how the overall experience was.
At first, I had a really hard time with the fast. Not knowing what was going on with all of my friends every second of the day was extremely difficult for me. I didn't know what to do with all the time I seemed to have. Well, I knew what I SHOULD have been doing... what the point of the fast was... you know, seeking God.. but I couldn't bring myself to sit down and start journaling and talking to God. I realized that the reason I kept putting it off was because I was afraid I wouldn't hear Him. That even with the "noise" removed from my life... I wouldn't hear Him. So, for the first few days I watched some TV, spent some time with my family, and did some worship paintings. Then (I think it was someone at lifegroup) I heard someone saying that even if God chooses to not speak to you some days, it's worship to simply seek after Him and just spend time focusing on His words and even reflecting back on the things He was spoken to you before. So I just started talking to Him.
My first time talking to Him during the fast was amazing. I just poured out what I had been meaning to write down for awhile. A lot of thanksgiving and praise.
That first week I feel that I got a grasp on time again. Time seemed to go by so slow when I wasn't wasting it away online. I felt that I had SO much more time to just spend with God. The rest of that week I just spent praising God.
The second week Nate spoke about anchoring yourself in the word which filled me with conviction. That's something that I'm not very good at. So that week was spent just going over scriptures and finding new ones that I fell in love with. Here are just some of them:
Zeph: 3:17
Isaiah 62:1-12
Ephesians
Philippians 1:6
The days kept going by and I spent more and more time in the word. I spent hours just journaling and listening to God and thinking about stuff. I became more and more comfortable with the silence. So much in fact that just now, I tried listening to music and do this... and I got distracted. I had to turn it off. That's how much I have fallen in love with silence. I crave it now.
I had coffee with Sarah today and, among many other things, she talked about how the silence has to become a lifestyle. That it's a discipline you have to ease yourself into. And it's so true. I had the hardest time with it at first but now I long to just go sit in my room with the bible and my journal and just go after God. It's amazing.
So overall, this past month has been incredible. I loved it. I feel like I really connected with God and reached a new level of intimacy with Him. I can't wait to see what comes next!
1 comment:
YAY God! :D
Seriously, just sitting in the quiet and reading the Bible is one of the best things everrr.
I'm happy for you that you are now so in love with the silence. I know it's something that I should create more of in my life. Of course, it proves to be pretty difficult considering my living situation. But that shouldn't stop me. And it usually doesn't. But i'm also a procrastinator and so i'll use the excuse sometimes. Long story short, lets vow to sacrifice to fall even deeper in love with God every day of the rest of our lives. I feel like before I started my relationship with Jesus was precious time wasted. <3 I love you, so much. And I think it took being without you to realize that. (not in a creeper way haha)
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