Excited, Frustrated, Stressed

As I'm on hold with Shasta School of Cosmetology my mind is racing.
I'm so excited to start on this journey, but at the same time I'm really scared.
I'm sorta stressed about the money issue.
I'm sorta worried about the job situation.

*Update on the job situation.....
A position was open in the Toddler Room for 9:30-1. I was super excited because I was going to get to do both that and the one I have now (2:30-6 in School Age room) and save up a lot of money. But then I found out that a lady who was already in the toddler room wanted that position so then HER position would be open (12-3:30). I was offered that and at first said I would take it. But then I started thinking about it...
Taking the 12 o'clock position would mean leaving the School Age classroom. And that just didn't feel right. I feel that it was DEFINITELY God's plan to put me into that classroom and I just don't feel like I'm done in there. I also really love the partnership that Paula and I have. We know what we have to do and we get it done. I just feel like it flows really well and I don't want to leave her with someone new coming into the classroom.
Also, when I first got into that classroom.... those kids were horrible. There was no set plan for discipline and they all just didn't listen or care. Now, there are very set rules and set punishments and consequences. I just don't want to see that all go away so soon as I moved classrooms.
So, the entire point of this here rabbit trail was to tell you all that I decided to stay in the school age classroom.

I wish that I could just start cutting hair. Without school. Like a normal job.
It's just that.... THIS is my dream. THIS is my calling and I just want to DO it.
The fact that I can only go to school part time really makes me mad.
I'm frustrated that I can't just HAVE the money to make all my payments AND be in school full time.


But I know........
That because this is God's plan.. He will provide.
He's not just going to leave me stranded.
Like Nate said last week... God doesn't give up on His dreams for us.
And I know that. But things are still frustrating.