Alrighty... so this can't be long because my sisters just started "Harry Routes 4" and I'm dying to go watch it.. and along with the lovely Harry... Robert Pattinson... okay... back to the point of the blog...
My last blog talked about how I've been lost/confused/in a funk/not inspired/just in a weird mood. Wellllll tonight I had coffee with the one and only Megan Isner and she TOTALLY helped put everything into perspective. The doubtful thoughts I've been having about God are obviously NOT from him so I have to keep praying and turning to God and giving everything over to him. I guess when I first started this whole "Jesus Journey" I assumed that the worst was over and it was going to be easy sailing from there on out... NOT the case. It's a daily battle that SO many people face. Praying started to become a chore and if I forgot or didn't want to I got so upset with myself. I finally understood tonight why... I'm afraid that if I stop praying everyday then I'll stop all together and drift away and be in a place that I never want to be in again... But Megan and her wonderful words of wisdom told me that, the fact that I realize the difference between where I was and where I am now.. along with me NEVER wanting to be in that place again means that I WON'T be there again. Me being conscious of that is what is going to keep me on track. You don't have to pray everyday or every hour... simply when you have something on your heart. I'm not saying don't ever pray, but just that it should never become a chore. You should want to tell God what's going on in your life.
Also, "Bray" keeps leaving me these blog comments that are TOTALLY from God because they are exactly what I need to hear at that moment. She is fairly new to this whole God thing but he continues to use her to tell me things. Thanks hun!!!!
Another one is Tina. She is an amazing woman of Christ and she can always talk me down from my trees that I constantly find myself in and she speaks straight to my heart. God is gonna use her for some AMAZING things. Our relationship has become SO much stronger because of Chirst. I can talk to her about everything and she always is ready with advice or just simply an ear to listen. I love her to death! :)
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I think this is some sort of weird Jesus phenomena that is going on with you and i. He is like talking through us to each other, teaching us all this crazy stuff about life and faith. It's the weirdest thing, but definitely amazing. If there were ever any doubts in my mind that there was a God, or that he was listening and loving, i think that has been completely kicked to the curb.
I mean, now i am curious what He has in store for me, and for you. I am so interested in both of our stories because i feel like you helped bring me to Christ, and you have been such an inspiration. Even though we aren't best friends nor are we like super close, i have felt so much closer to you recently, and maybe that is what i need. maybe that is what we need? like that is the meaning of it. idk. maybe i should make a blog of my own because i went off rambling and now i can't even remember what i was trying to say :) lol
Ash I so love you! I am here to talk you down from any tree love. I am so proud of you and all that you are and all that you're becoming. Stay strong in Christ girly! Never forget where you come from.
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