The point of this blog is to thank Tina for speaking such truth and light into my heart without even realizing it.
Let's recap.
The past few weeks have been really rough.
Realizing that I had to leave Paul Mitchell. Actually leaving Paul Mitchell and then trying to adjust to living at home again.
Among everything, I just had this sudden feeling of loneliness. I had my family all here and I moved back to Redding where all my friends are, but there was just something missing.
I was feeling sorry that I don't have a boy. Feeling sorry that I had to leave school. Missing my friends from school. Trying to adjust to being home and NOT being busy from 9 AM- 10PM. Frustrated that I'm working for SCOE again and not getting to do hair every day. Stressing about when the apprenticeship thing is going to even start. Hating that I had to move back home. Feeling sorry that I don't have a boy (yes, I realize this is listed on here multiple times... because that was a big one for me) Frustrated that I couldn't help a friend out with her problems. Feeling sorry that I don't have a boy.
And on top of all of this... feeling super disconnected from God and not hearing anything from Him lately. Feeling like I moved home and had my dream school taken away but then He wasn't anywhere around to help me pick up the pieces and move on.
So basically, I have been throwing this huge ol' pity party for myself for the past two weeks.
It has NOT been fun.
So tonight, without even knowing it, Tina spoke these HUGE words of truth and light that pushed through ALL those lies I had been hearing and went straight to my heart.
We were talking about another friend who had been having loneliness issues and how this friend is grasping at anything that even remotely looks like it might turn into a relationship and how she isn't trusting God to provide.
Tina just spoke these words of truth like,
"She says she trusts God to provide everything, but is she really when she is trying to MAKE things work?"
"God has always provided for her and He always will. Why is she worrying?"
"God already knows the deepest desires of her heart and will fulfill them all, but in His timing"
"She isn't thankful for where God has her now and with the people He has surrounded her with"
And many other things that I can't remember (probably because it's 1:30 in the morning) but were all super amazing.
Friend, all those things you said tonight were straight from "Dad". You have no idea how badly I needed to hear all of those things. You basically came and dug my head out of the sand.
I hadn't even talked to you about anything that I had been feeling (because I hadn't even really processed it) but you seriously, spoke straight through the lies and replaced them all with truth.
Reminding me that God has it all planned out.
Reminding me that things happen according to HIS timing and NOT mine.
Reminding me that I need to be thankful for what I have.
Reminding me that I need to be thankful for WHO I have.
Reminding me that I am a daughter of the King and He can withhold no good thing from me.
Reminding me that I do not need a boy at this moment.
Reminding me that not having a boy is not God's idea of a cruel joke, but His way of protecting me and shaping me and preparing me for my future boy.
Reminding me to be thankful for whatever happens in life because it is all part of His plan.
Reminding me to always turn back to Him.
Reminding me to TRUST Him (someday this will get through my THICK skull.... I promise)
And lastly, reminding me to trust in what He has already spoken to me.
Remembering that He calls me beautiful one and that His opinion of me will never ever change.
So, thank you. For being so blunt and wise. For always encouraging me. For being there. For speaking truth. And for just being there. You are amazing and I love you to death!!!
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